Unknown

i JusT dONt knOw Tuesday, January 16, 2007

I hate to be alone

No company I’d seek



You question every word

But search to find the truth



The lies I wouldn’t tell

When there’s no where to hide



I’ve search my soul to find myself

I’m lost in what I’ve found



No answers to my questions

No seek and ye shall find



Confusions seems to seep inside my every pour

Death cannot resolve escape



No one knows the pain I feel

Yet I’ve sought it for myself



I’ve turned away from what I want

To turn into what I need



No one said that it’d be easy

And no one paved the way in gold



Nothing can quench the hunger I feel within my soul



I’m one to follow rules

I’m not one to play the game



I fear what I write

The thoughts themselves in print



If happiness I seek

It’s already been found



I have all I’d ever need

And more then I could want



As the days creep closer

Memories flood the past

I never thought I’d miss

What its clear I’d never had

I still call your name in dreams I seek





I want to be who I am,

Not what your not

One Tree

pOEM: OnE trEe Monday, January 15, 2007

One little tree stands alone

Amongst the stark and empty sky

Amid the grassy pasture

Wildflowers once grew



Each branch stretching aloft

Birds no longer nest within my twisted limbs

My leafy buds have shriveled

My roots lack the sustenance of preservation

Headache

pOEM: hEadache Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The noise within my soul

Shatters every move

The echoes churn within a swollen mind

Light seeps deep inside every pore

And still I seek to feel no more



To lie among the empty seas

And gaze upon the sun

To end the hurricane of winds and rain

In the silence I am numb

Amid the peaceful empty hum

My Dearest Jennifer,

Once upon a time,
a long time ago
God gave a blessing to me,
A sister
the best friend my heart will ever know.
We have not talked lately
It gets so hard to find the time
I send you big kiss
By the way I miss you too

I was thinking just today
About how we used to play
Barbie dolls and make-up
Tea parties dress up
I remember how we'd fight
We made up and laughed all night
Wish we were kids again
My sister my friend

Seem like just yesterday
We spend the night studying the dictionary
We can laugh about it now
We've learned a lot since then
My sister my friend

Come and see me sometime soon
We could just hang out like we used to
I need to tell you
What I don't tell you enough
Even though at times it seemed
We were more like enemies
I'd do it all again
My sister my friend
A sister shares your life
when you’re young and growing up
you can’t choose a sister
like you choose a friend to love.
But when you get older
you choose the friends in your life
and if I looked the world over
you’re still the one I’d choose to be mine.
There is no one in the world quite like you! I love you with all my heart!

Number Six

Poem: nuMbEr 6 Friday, July 29, 2005

Days are growing longer
My time is running out
Should I keep on searching
Hope someday you find out

I lie awake at night and stare
You awake me unaware
Dreams of you stream through my head
I know that feeling anywhere

Will you be my number 6?
Will you hold me when I am sick?
Will you kiss me every night?
Tuck me in and hold me tight?
Will you be my number 6?

Walking through the morning dew
Its cold against my feet
Naked in the grassy moonlight
Toes frozen in the wind

Hold me close in the dark
Never lose me in the night
Until tomorrow comes again
Keep we warm in the rain

Will you be my number 6?
Will you hold me when I am sick?
Will you kiss me every night?
Tuck me in and hold me tight?
Will you be my number 6?

Alone I can no longer be
I need you here with me
Pretend that you love me
And I’ll pretend your mine

Don’t wanna be alone to think
Minds abyss I’d sink
Can’t erase you from my head
Don’t wanna forget

Tried not to analyze
What I saw with my two eyes
I watch you look at me
Can you stay the night

Each day I find excuse
To sneak into your view
Can you feel it too?
What can this become?

Will you be my number 6?
Will you hold me when I am sick?
Will you kiss me every night?
Tuck me in and hold me tight?
Will you be my number 6?

Never

Poem: NeVEr Friday, July 29, 2005

Never meant to hurt you
Never knew I did
If I knew then what I know now
It never would have been

I didn’t know how to tell you
Didn’t know what you would say
Didn’t mean to hurt you
I’ll be gone yesterday

I asked to look back
Find where it came from
No sense in getting lost
In something that he’s done

Forever to forgive me
Understand your heart wont give
You told me nothings changed
But I can’t let go, I didn’t know

I’ll take you down
It’ll all be fine
Then you’ll go away
And wont be mine

Forever to forgive me
The fault isn’t mine
You’ve said nothings changed
But yet you’ve gone away

God Knows It Isn't Me

Poem: God kNowS IT ISnT ME Thursday, July 28, 2005

Blow away in the breeze
Forget the troubles of yesterday
Nothing as it seems
Walk along the shore
Reflect what’s unknown

Can you take my hand
Join me on a journey
We can learn together
All that we don’t know

Follow the path that guides
Beneath the starlit sky
Universe illuminating
Heavy rest upon me

What is it you long for
What is in your dream
Who is it you see
God knows it isn’t me